I have a recurring dream about my mum who dies 12 years ago. She died whilst living in my sisters house….she wasn’t really happy about being there but there was no choice at the time. I was preparing to take her with me to a new home but she died 2 weeks before the house was completed just two weeks before I got the keys to the new house. In the dream she is in a nursing somewhere, but I don’t know where, and I haven’t her phone no. and having seen her or talked to her in a long time. I keep searching for her and as far as I know other members of my family know where she is but are not telling me. The dream is so distressing and I wake up believing she is still alive and after a few minutes realise that she is dead….last night I go so distressed after the dream, cried my eyes out…it depresses me so much that I wasn’t there for her at the end and my dream of having her come live with me wasn’t realized.