My husband has been deceased for 18 years and we had a great relationship. For the last year, I have been dreaming a lot about us living our lives together and being happen. Laughing. I do miss him so much. I feel so lonely and sometimes afraid. I feel like I have no purpose in life anymore. I feel depressed and all alone. I live alone and I do not like it. I use to nurture him and he was my care giver and my angel sent from Heaven. Tonight I cried for the first time in a long time. In the dream, we are smiling and laughing, working together to make each other happy. I miss him so much. He was my backbone. He was my best friend too.