I dreamt that I shot myself in the neck just to see what it felt like. After I shot myself, I was driving a military vehicle with supplies in the back. Where I was driving to there was a lot of people protesting, but they let me in and stopped a trucker from going any further. I drove in a gate and unloaded my supplies. I kept telling people I did not know I wasn\’t going to be around for very much longer. Then all of a sudden my wife was next to me crying uncontrollably while I called all my kids and my mom and sister. Before I dreamt any further my wife woke me up, but I was crying when I woke up. What does this mean.