My mom died three years ago from a drug overdose and I keep having this recurring dream where she faked her death and wants nothing to do with me. We have had a rocky past where she often put men in front of me and it comes back in my dreams and haunts me. She is often with a boyfriend that badly abused us in this dream and she keeps choosing him over me and continuing to do drugs despite my warnings. I could scream at her in my dreams but she pretends not to listen and walks away from me. These dreams keep bringing up feelings of worthlessness and being unwanted.