I have a friend that committed suicide. He was the brother of my best friend in the world. I was watching him during his last minutes leading up to and then him actually hanging himself and dying. I couldnt do anything but watch. Every time I tried to stop him I would be held back by some invisible force. He couldnt hear me when I yelled either. It was like Scrooge in a Christmas Carol, all I could do is watch. It was terrible.