for the past 4 years every December around my birthday (15th) i always have nightmares of the still birth of my daughter. though it was a very tragic event in my life and i was effected not only emotionally but mentally as well. i have questioned what I’ve done to deserve my opportunity to be a father when i took every precaution to be the best father i could be, as far as stocking diapers to the ceiling in the nursery getting life insurance, baby proofing the house, quitting smoking and even saved almost $20,000 in 7 months for savings towards emergency/college funding for her when she was grown. i was only 21 years old had my own home a great job and i was overwhelmed with joy to become a father. then exactly 2 months to the day of her due date, (remind you was by birthday of december 15th) on october 15th at 3:47 Am. my fiance woke frantic and felt something was wrong and woke me up to tell me. i always got our daughter to move my just speaking to her belly but when i was asking her what was the matter and put my hand on her womb, it was still and motionless, she was having extreme pains in her abdomen and felt like she was contracting so i rushed her to the E.R. and they immediately induced her into labor because they couldn’t find our daughters heartbeat, that horrific morning i witnessed the love o my life give birth to my pride and joy and greatest dream just one thing was missing. her breath. my daughter was still born at 7:28 A.M. 2 months premature caused by a strained umbilical cord that for some reason was never caught during any of our ultrasounds prior to that day. ever since i have been haunted by the replay of that night in my dreams this time every year. i don’t know why i have them or what they mean and wish for some answers, solutions, or advice to set these nightmares at ease and to move on with my life and family.